It’s New Year 2020 & As A Physically Disabled Trans Woman I’ve Never Been So Shit Scared About My Future As I’m Now

Though I had most awesome start to this new decade as in the first minutes of the 2020s I got engaged to my girlfriend & we both now dream of having a fabulous wedding sometime in the next few years, however this is all very much dependent on whether this Tory government doesn’t murder me for the crime of being a disabled person.

Despite there being wedding bells in the air for yours truly, I’ve never been as scared for my future as I’m this New Year 2020, yes I might have survived the 2010s as a disabled person who increasingly needs government assistance to help me with the day to day tasks which able bodied people take for granted when over many other disabled people perished as a consequence of Tory austerity, but I can’t help thinking its really only a matter of time before I’m shipped off to an Atos death camp & become yet another statistic in the Tory genocide against disabled people.

The Tories continuing policy when it comes to caring for disabled people

Genocide & death camps might sound well too emotive & hyperbolic for some, but hey your likely not a severely disabled person thus have no fucking idea what so fucking ever what it’s fucking feels like to be a disabled person living under the threat which Tory government poses to us merely breathing never mind living or thriving. Let me remind you without truly having a parliamentary majority the Tories have managed kill over 100,000 disabled people over the past decade & gave a knighthood to the evil Tory cunt who was main architect of that genocidal level of death, now the Tories have a thumping parliamentary majority I dread to think what economic terrorism the Tories are now going to get away with unleashing on disabled people particularly when there are Tory backbenchers like Sally-Ann Hart Hastings & Rye who thinks disabled people are inferior human beings.

I dread to think what economic terrorism the Tories will unleash when Brexit kicks in! Oh fucking dear (& then some) if your some fuckwit gammon who’s thinking Brexit will somehow produce some kind of British renaissance & the 2020s will be the roaring 2020s, because you truly are a fucking fuckwitted fool who knows nothing about fucking economics. This country is going to be far poorer as a consequence of Brexit & shit is going to be a lot more expensive, which is going hurt most off all the most vulnerable in society such as disabled people, but hey bollocks to us disabled people so long as gammon get to wrap themselves up in Union Jacks & bash Johnny Foreigner.

There are conflicting reports as to whether former leader of the English Defence League Tommy Robinson & leader of Britain First Paul Golding have had there applications to join the Tory Party turned down, but the fact the fascist hatemongering gammon are joining the Tories in droves led by the likes of Tommy Robinson & Paul Golding & Katie Hopkins is shit fucking scary, in fact what’s more scary is that Boris Johnson nor any other senior Tory has discouraged out & out fascist thugs from joining the Tories nor condemning fascist thug like Paul Golding making threats of violence against those who legitimately oppose this Tory government.

Boris’s hardon for Brexit, Boris’s racist & Islamophobic & homophobic &  misogynistic rhetoric, Boris evidently being Britain’s pound shop version of Donald Trump, geez wonder why far-right hatemongering trolls are attracted to supporting the Tories, fuck it why not cut out the bullshit & have the Tories drop the oak tree as their party logo & replace it with the swastika because hey it’s obviously the direction the Tories are currently traveling.

I’m not just shitting myself about the Tories economic policy affecting me due to being a disabled person, I’m shitting myself about the Tories social policies affecting me as a trans woman, for whatever reason trans people are still the most persecuted section of the LGBTQ community & considering we now have hatemongering gobshites trolls like Katie Hopkins joining the Tories who is the most rabid of rabid transphobic bigots & that we know there are transphobic bigots on the Tory parliamentary benches such as David T.C Davies, yeah it doesn’t quite look as if it will be the roaring 2020s if you’re trans or non-binary. I’m not saying that lesbian & gays won’t be immune from any Tory anti-LGBTQ bullshit, but apart from the odd fringe voice spouting homophobic bigotry the vast majority of Tories now generally accept gay & lesbian equality, it’s trans & particularly non-binary people who’ll be targeted by any Tory anti-LGBTQ bullshit. Despite us seeing a lot positive progress for trans people throughout the 2010s, maybe due to first half of the decade Britain having a Tory Prime Minister for all his faults was in fact socially liberal, but those days are long gone & the transphobic backlash is well underway, it’s now a question how much that will this will influence this Tory government when it comes to policy.

Remember Donald Trump posing with the LGBTQ Pride flag at a rally during the 2016 presidential election campaign, remember Boris going out of his way to mention LGBTQ when he first entered Downing Street as Prime Minister, golly hasn’t the Trump administration been mightily progressive & enlightened in it’s policies concerning the LGBTQ community & specifically trans people err NOT! Remember it was a Tory government which brought in Section 28 which deliberately discriminated against gays & lesbians, well there are now transphobic bigots proposing a similar discriminatory policy in regards to trans people.

I might not be so hopeful the 2020s will be so roaring for me personally or friends around me, in fact I sadly think the 2020s might be the last decade I get to draw breathe due to Tory this & Tory that, but I guarantee I will continue to fight & campaign against Tory evilness the best I can & I will never ever go fucking quietly.

Thanks To Fascistic Trump I’m Now Immobile For Christmas

I recently received this bullshit disabilist tweet from somebody who’s quite obviously a Tory troll.

Yes of course I must be lying my fucking arse off about being disabled because I’m not dribbling whilst sat in a wheelchair 100% of the time unable to comprehend the world. I can most definitely testify from personal experience as disabled person that the disablist attitude exhibited by this Tory troll is sadly pretty prevalent amongst the general populous, people really do seem to think that unless you’re not visibly sat in a wheelchair 100% of the time then your bullshitting the world about being disabled. What’s particularly irksome isn’t just that many people can’t grasp not all disabilities are visible & that those disabilities which are invisible are often the most debilitating of disabilities, it’s the contradictory bullshit of accusing disabled people of using whatever disabilities they suffer from as an excuse in not making enough effort to do whatever but then accusing disabled people of lying about being disabled when they do make an effort to do whatever, in other words when I do make effort to get out & about to do whatever despite being disabled I’m accused of lying about being disabled yet if I didn’t make an effort to get out & about to do whatever because of being disabled I’m then accused of using my disabilities as an excuse to be lazy, seems to me cynicism has replaced compassion regards the general attitude of people in this country towards disabled people.

For the record I suffer from multiple disabilities (not all of which are visible) including physical disabilities effecting my mobility, for the record whenever I have attended any protest or parade in London I’ve more often then not been laid up unable to walk for more then day afterwards, but it’s not just the next few days I’m going to be laid up unable to walk as a consequence of having attended yesterday’s Anti-Trump demo in London but I’m going to be immobile for the entirety of Christmas due to having tripped & fallen & in process knackering my right knee as well as spraining my left ankle.

yours truly at yesterday’s Anti Trump demo prior to busting my knee

When I tripped & fell as the anti-Trump demo was setting off from Trafalgar Square to march on Buckingham Palace where Queen Lizzy was hosting a reception for Donald Trump & other NATO leaders, it wasn’t the pain from having tripped & fallen in the manner I did that had me in floods of tears, but the police & stewards who’d gathered round me to see if I was okay misgendering me as ‘he’, which was kind of frigging ironic as I was attending this Anti-Trump demo to represent trans people as Indeed I have when I’ve attended all the other Anti-Trump demos I’ve managed to attend over the past couple of years.

With yesterday’s Anti Trump demo there were activists giving speeches about all usual leftwing concerns you’d expect activists to be making speeches about at an Anti-Trump demonstration, justice for Palestinians, fuck off NATO, Trump is a racist & Islamophobe & a misogynist, all which being a redder then red socialist I of course agree with, but there wasn’t one LGBTQ activist or more specifically trans activist speaking from the platform yesterday thus no mention of Trump’s rabid transphobia despite it being more then fucking evident that from the moment he took office his administration has been waging a war against trans people. Though Paris Lees did get to speak at a previous Anti-Trump demo back in the summer of 2018 which was attended by 300,000 people (me included) usually there’s been an absence of trans or even LGBTQ speakers at the Anti-Trump demos there have been & generally when it comes to antifascist demonstrations. Don’t the Stop The War Coalition or Unite Against Fascism or the Socialist Workers Party or whichever leftwing activist group who’ve been organising Anti-Trump & antifascist demos not know Trump is being a colossal cunt towards trans people, do they not think the rise is the far-right isn’t an increasing threat to LGBTQ people & specifically trans people?

It’s because of the lack of LGBTQ representation & specifically the lack of trans representation there has been from platform at Anti-Trump & antifascist protests which is exactly the reason why I attend these kind of protests waving a Trans Pride flag like a motherfucker & why there needs to be far more trans visibility amongst the demonstrators at these sort of protests as a reminder trans people are very much threatened by the rise of the far-right in fact more so then any other section of the LGBTQ community. Some might pooh-pooh my personal efforts to increase trans visibility in the fight against fascism making bollock all difference, however to my surprise a trans friend who ‘s a working-class Tory actually applauded me for my efforts in trying to increase trans visibility when it comes to demonstrating against Trump. It’s certainly not a good thing to have busted my knee thanks to Donald Trump being a fascist fuck, but having a Tory of all people appreciate me for the effort I’ve made in trying raise trans visibility when it comes to protesting Trump well that actually means a great deal to me & goes a long way to making up for the physical agony I’m having to endure this festive season.

Tories Think Its Disgusting To Say Shit About Tory Boy But Not To Murder Tens Of Thousands Of Disabled People

Tories have been acting all butthurt & getting their panties in a serious bind due to the flack lefty shitlords such as myself have been giving their oh so not subtle Tory Boy plant in the audience of last night’s edition of BBC Question Time, fuck me the resemblance of this swotty wanker who’s possibly the offspring of a one night stand between Jacob Rees Mogg & his nanny looks way too uncanny to Harry Enfield’s Tory Boy character from his 90s comedy sketch show, Harry’s Tory Boy character might’ve been a satirically comedic response to then Tory leader William Hague but has turned out to be frigging prophetic when it comes to swotty wanker Nathan from Brighton in 2019’s Question Time audience who of course waffled on about fucking Brexit, I bet Nathan is a bundle of fun at whatever school he attends when he’s not rushing to the toilet to wank himself crazy over photos of Margret Thatcher & Ayn Rand novels.

Nathan from Brighton looks uncannily Harry Enfield’s Tory Boy

Of course Tory twats are going to think the response of lefty shitlords such as myself to Nathan from Brighton is ‘disgusting’ & ‘intolerant’ & get all butthurt, despite the fact one chooses to be a Tory Boy but doesn’t choose to be disabled, despite what’s truly disgusting & intolerant is that the Tories have murdered 100,000 plus disabled people over the past decade & persecuted countless others for the mistakes of their banker chums.

Tory Boy Nathan from Brighton might waffle on about Brexit on BBC Question but hey it’s the same deal with the rest of the BBC’s current affairs output & across the rest of the mainstream news media, we are currently well over a week into this general election & I’ve heard fuck all from the appearance of any political pundit or politician about the effects of Tory austerity & the dismantling of the welfare state upon disabled people, all I’ve heard is Brexit this & Brexit that, Brexit, Brexit fucking cunting precious Brexit!

I think we all knew Brexit would be the issue which dominated this election, I also knew the mainstream media with its Tory bias would push harder then during the last General Election campaign to ensure the major talking point of this General Election was Brexit & not have a repeat of the last General Election where the Tories tried to make the General Election campaign all about Brexit but Labour managed to change the narrative somewhat, all of which is why I’ve repeatedly posted on social-media that leftwing pundits & politicians when given a media platform get more forceful in reminding all there are more important issues then fucking Brexit precious Brexit & to derail the mainstream news media’s agenda of having Brexit dominate this election.

I’m not denying Brexit isn’t a major issue but I just wish some politician appearing on Politics Live or on Peston or any other mainstream news media current affairs show said bollocks to Brexit it’s a distraction to the amount of vulnerable people the Tories are persecuting & killing because it’s the truth & I think it would be enough of a refreshing thought bomb to begin waking people from the mass Brexit malaise which has infected the minds of millions.

If the Tories win another term with a parliamentary majority I serious dread to think of the amount of disabled & vulnerable people they’ll kill in the next 5 years, the most at stake with this General Election is for disabled people because what is at stake for disabled people is our lives.

The Stupid Things Trans Women Say

A fellow trans woman said to me recently that I seemed preoccupied far more with political issues other then pertaining to trans equality thus I’m seriously out-of-the-loop when it comes to what’s happening currently with trans activism, oh geez I’m sorry for not being yet another trans woman blogger exclusively obsessing about trans stuff, geez I’m sorry that as well as being born trans, I was also born disabled & Jewish & thus have a greater sense of intersectionality, Any sense of intersectionality is something severely lacking when it comes to many a trans women I’ve encountered, if I seriously set about detailing the amount of disabilist bullshit I’ve been subjected to from other trans women over the years, it would be more than a separate lengthy article I’d find myself writing but possibly a book’s worth & book worth’s in several volumes. Many trans people really haven’t learnt from the mantra that if you don’t care about the plight of other victimised people then why should other victimised people care about your own plight, because disabilist bullshit isn’t the only kind of bigoted & intolerant bullshit I’ve heard being expressed by other trans women towards other oppressed sections of society, I’ve heard plenty of racism (including out & out antisemitism) & even heard a good dose of homophobia however strange that might seem to those outside trans circles.

I currently hear an awful lot of obsessive fretting from middle-class trans women insecure about whether post the Tory leadership contest there’s still going to be support from the Tory government for the new Gender Recognition Act & whether self-identification for trans people will become a reality, now I do support self-identification for trans people as cis people don’t have to go through the rigmarole of a medical quango to have their gender identity confirmed then why should trans people have to, but for me personally it’s the Tories having killed more than 100,000 disabled people & could potentially kill thousands more post the Tory leadership contest which is somewhat more of a priority to be highlighting & campaigning about. I’ve heard very little condemnation from the majority of trans women concerning the Tories murdering tens of thousands of disabled people & persecuting thousands more into destitution, I’m not denying that things could get a whole load bleaker for trans people if the Tories do lurch further to the hard-right, but if the Tories do drop support for the new Gender Recognition Act, I don’t think any middle-class trans women is going to die from self-identification not becoming a legal reality, whereas its almost guaranteed that whoever does become the next Tory Prime Minister will continue with the same Tory economic policies which are persecuting & killing disabled people & the situation could become a great deal worse for disabled people as a consequence of Brexit.

My own personal experience of the trans community as disabled trans woman having interacted is that in the exceptionally rare likelihood that a trans woman was to ever physically assault a severely disabled person with a crowbar, a large proportion of the trans community would actually side with the trans woman & if not defend them assaulting that disabled person they would make excuses for them doing so, this in a manner of speaking has in fact happened to me because some of the most vicious disabilist abuse I’ve received from other trans women has come from some very prominent trans activists & when I’ve gone public about the kind of disabilist discrimination I’ve been subjected to by (for a lack of a better term) ‘celebrity’ trans women well the trans community as a whole has refused to address such abuse rather preferring to make excuses for those who are guilty (if not outrightly defending them) & trying to sweep it all under the carpet.

I know some trans women will try to lecture me that the reason I’m not well regarded & I don’t get listened to within the trans community is due to me constantly kicking trans people in articles which I write & if I tried to do something constructively positive in support of trans people then maybe I’d be listened to more. It’s simply not true that all ever do is knock trans people in articles I write, because whenever I write about LGBTQ issues I’m forever making an effort never to ignore the plight of trans people when many other writers would, as for doing something constructively positive in support of trans people, well I’ve tried to organise protests & campaigns in defence of trans rights & advocating greater social justice for trans people & I was forever getting heckled & cut down by other trans people to the point I had to walk away from full on trans activism for the sake of my own psychological wellbeing. Yeah fellow trans women might complain I’m seriously out-of-the-loop when it comes to what’s happening currently with trans activism, but it’s not as if I haven’t tried to be very much in-the-loop regards trans activism, but the majority of trans people very much appear not to actually want me to be in-the-loop regards trans activism, they don’t want likes of me involved period.

I was invited to an activist meeting at the beginning of this year by Jane Fae who is one of the few trans activists who does value my opinion, but when I expressed a fear that not much concern was been shown about YouTube shitlord hatemongers such as Paul Joseph Watson propagating transphobic shite despite his subscriber base being larger than the weekly circulation then all the British broadsheet newspapers combined, I had my opinion very much pooh-poohed & maligned because the truth is most trans activists who go to activist meetings are generally White, middle-class, university educated & so think the that it’s only the opinion of the broadsheet newspapers which count because politicians tend to read broadsheets, never mind the generation of haters which the likes of Paul Joseph Watson & Carl Benjamin & other YouTube shitlord hatemongers are helping to breed which for those of us who don’t own a car will have contend with when we walk down the street.

It never seems I can do right for trans people, for instance last week Paris Lees tweeted some made up bullshit transphobic bigots were propagating about her wanting to shag everything in sight when she eventually had a fully functional vagina & so in response I tweeted in defence of Paris & trans women in general about how transphobic bigots are always trying to make out how trans women are sex starved maniacs, because TERFs (Trans Exclusionary Radical Feminists) in particular are always making out that trans women are actually sex crazed men who dress as women to gain access to women only spaces with the intention of sexually assaulting cis women, which of course is complete & un utter bollocks. So a couple of days after I defended Paris on Twitter, a trans woman started bitching at me about how I was making out Paris was a slut, err what the fuck?!?! Hey I’m as liberal as they come, the less sexually repressed people are & the more fucking & sucking going on the better the world would be, I’ve not got a clue how my defence of Paris was making her out to be a slut, in fact I’m 110% sure it fucking wasn’t, but this latest incident well just illustrates the stupid shit trans women say to me & is another reason why I don’t concentrate on writing about other matters.